Supernatural: early season 5 meta

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So, I've currently just watched 5x03 and... wow. There is some serious heavy stuff going on already. This season really doesn't have time for the fillers (yet at least), and that is totally fine by me: I love the hopeless feeling of it all, the claustrophobic settings and the fact that Sam and Dean split up. Okay, so I actually sort of hate that. More on it later.

Season four ended, if possibly, on an even worse note than season three did, and considering that season three ended with one of our main characters being dragged to Hell, well, that's saying alot. The sheer hopelesness of the entire situation, the fact that Sam screwed up so bad, and do you guys remember how much I hated on him? God knows my twitter-followers got the brunt of it, and I just wanted to yell and hit Sam over the head with something heavy and large, like a pick-up truck, but now I just feel so sorry for him. Look, I am much more of a Dean-girl than a Sam-girl, let no lie be spoken about it, but I still love Sam to bits and pieces, he just frustrates me a lot. And that's good. Like the Doctor, Buffy Summers, Harry Potter and Mary Crawley, I love having characters that I can sympathize with and yell at at the same time. Now, however, I am sort of regretting all my anger at Sam because... ugh, HIS FACE! When he realizes what he's done, what Dean was trying to stop him from doing... I have never seen him look so shattered, not when Jessica died, not when their dad died: because this is, completely, without a doubt his fault. With Jessica there was guilt, of course, but it was always more vague, because how could he have stopped it? And yes, he was manipulated here as well, and Ruby did a damn good job of it (her 'I'm... I'm awesome!' line cracked me up so much), but as Dean points out in 5x01, Sam picked a demon over his own brother. It is basically Sam having two sets of moral codes hanging in front of him: one of them is the old, familiar one and the other one is one he's been relying on for four months now while the old one was gone, and who... well, gives him strength. All of this would be much more redeemable if Ruby wasn't a demon. I cannot stress it enough. A demon. What is the cause of all this pain in their life? A demon. Why is Jessica dead? A demon. Why is John dead? A demon. Want me to continue?

Again, I can completely see where Sam is coming from. 100%, according to the character and the situations, it is so beliveable it hurts and it is damn good writing, not to mention acting. Does that stop me from both wanting to shake Sam 'till his head pops off and give him the worlds biggest hug ever? No. Because the Winchester's are messed up, and will always be, and Sam made a huge mistake. And he's paying for it: Dean no longer trusts him. Dean, his older brother, who he's looked up to always, who was more of a parent than John ever was, who went to Hell for him, who would do anything for his little brother. That is the most heartbreaking thing that could ever happen, and Sam accepts it in a way that makes me so happy: he doesn't get mad at Dean, he doesn't try to justify himself; he sits down and takes the blame, because what the hell else can you do when you starting the freakin' Apocalypse?

I have one glib though: the voice-mail. I YELLED AT MY SCREEN WHEN SAM HEARD THE MESSAGE. I WAS LIKE NONONONOOOO, IT'S THE FUCKING ANGELS OR GODDAMN RUBY MESSING WITH YOU, THAT'S NOT WHAT DEAN SAID AT ALL DEAN'S MESSAGE WAS BEAUTIFUL AND HE APOLOGIZED AND SAID HE WAS WILLING TO PUT IT ASIDE BECAUSE YOU WERE BROTHERS AND HE WANTED TO SEE YOU SO BAD. I just want Sam to hear the real voice-mail, to know that, when it really mattered and even after Sam had betrayed him and tried to strangle him (I cannot get over that, that scene gave me nightmares!!), Dean was still willing to give him a second chance. Pleaseplease tell me if it ever comes up again? This is the only thing you may spoil me about, because if Sam never finds out that's not what Dean said, I'd rather know now and not get dissapointed when it never gets mentioned again. Thank-you.

Back to the 'splitting-up' thing. I get it. I thought it was a great idea: at the end of 'Good God Y'All', it's just clear that Dean can't trust Sam enough for them to work together, and that's okay. What Sam did was awful and horrible, and Dean should not just outright forgive him just because he feels awful about it. Yes, the Apocalypse is happening, um, now, but that is just even more reason why they need to work this out: and right now, they need to work it out apart.

That being said... 'Free Be to You and Me' may have made me change my mind a bit about this (and made me roll around on the floor laughing, omg Cas why are you so goddamn perfect, never stop, always be with Dean and fight those teenage mutant ninja angels!!!!). Dean's whole speech to Cas at the end, about how he's spent so long being dependent on his family and now he's so happy he's alone... look, I think Dean has realized how attached he is to Sam, that he is too attached to Sam, but that scene in the car? He is lying. Seriously. I cannot see any other way to intepret this scene, and you will never convince me otherwise: Jensen Ackles can do wonderful things with his face, and one of those things is sheer pain. He is just so wrecked and trying to keep up a brave front, because he has to be okay with this, he has the Apocalypse to stop of all things, and he can't afford to be hung-up about Sam not being there. And of course, Sam is no better off (on that note, was I the only one who found Lindsey annoying? Seriously, is this how people act? If someone tried to be this pushy when flirting with me, I would tell them to get lost, and I don't even have any secret as horrible as Sam's (I used my mum's earrings once without permission: that's about the worst of it). She just bothered me, she was waaaay too pushy). Also, are all hunters just bastard? No, I don't know, I can also see where they're coming from what with everything's that has just happened, but first Gordon and now this? AND SAM I AM SO PROUD OF YOU FOR SPITTING OUT THE BLOOD, COME HERE FOR THAT HUG, I AM SORRY ABOUT THE TRUCK-THING I SWEAR I WON'T RUN YOU OVER WITH IT AGAIN JUST PLEASE BE OKAY MY BABY-CAKES.

Other things:

• Bobby. Please noooo! Nononono. I yelled in joy when you stabbed yourself trying to save Dean, but now you're in a wheelchair and... :(

• Ellen and Jo! I'm so glad you're back! Predictions: they won't come back until much, much later, at which point they, Bobby, Rufus and everyone else our boys have even breathed the same air as will die. But Ellen was on my screen for forty minutes AND IT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL. Also, War was GREAT. Love the car.

• So, was I the only one who thought it was pretty easy to figure out that Dean was the Sword of Michael and that it meant he was his vessel? (and for the record, 'angel-condom' will never not be funny!). Also Becky!! KRIPKE WHAT IS YOUR BRAIN, FIRST YOU GIVE US THE BOOKS WITHIN THE SHOW AND CHUCK AND NOW THERE'S ACTUAL FANFICTION? WHERE IS THIS DEAN/SAM FIC ANYWAY?? Becky is so funny, because she's believeable, I mean, I act like that in here, don't I? Also 'you're so firm'. Bwahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaa. Sam has all the weird fangirls. And 'Could you take your hand off me?' - 'No' *dies* I don't know what she thinks is wrong with Dean's face though. It was sculpted by angels, surely.

• Leading from Dean being Michael's vessel... seriously, I almost never figure out things in a show. I'm always getting mindfucked, but this time? I called it. As soon as Zachariah confirmed my theory about Dean, I was sitting and waiting for them to go: 'and Sam is Lucifer's vessel'. I mean, I guess the Nick-thing was meant to throw us off, but I was still a bit dissapointed that no-one jumped to that conclusion. On the other hand, what if Dean hadn't sold his soul in the s2 finale, and Sam had stayed dead? How was Azazel gonna explain that to Lucifer once he'd broken the seals? 'Yeah, buddy, about that vessel of yours...' LOL, and your plan was so brilliant otherwise Azazel.

• ALSO MEG IS BACK!! HI MEG!!!!

• Of course, I wasn't dissapointed about the non-reveal in ep1, because THEN CAS WAS THERE! HI CAS! Look, I know that there is a lot of talking about Dean acting like a total shit towards Castiel, and he does, but I understand it. Dean is just not... very good with people that isn't family, and Cas is only slowly becoming this. I'd like to hear a thank-you, though. Pretty please? No. I guess not. LOOK, IT DOESN'T HELP THAT I SHIP THESE TWO SO HARD IT PHYSICALLY HURTS!!

• Also, Dean trying to get Cas laid. omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomg, Misha let me marry you pleaseplease, your acting is so good and how is this so awkward? Seriously though Dean, if you don't want Cas to die a virgin, you should just go ahead and do something about it yourself....

I want to do a picspam of every single Cas-scene this season, because how is someone allowed to be that pretty?????? It's just not fair.... I watch for the plot. Really.

Comments

[fueschgast]

The hopeless feeling was what I couldn't stand. It felt like when Scully was given cancer all over again.

picked a demon over his own brother kinda reminds me of Sherlock. Only that I'm sure that Mycroft didn't, it only looks that way.
Aw, don't hate on the demons - that's totally racist! :oP

[isilienelenihin.livejournal.com]

I love Bobby. :D